I will NEVER be a size 2 For as long as I have lived, I've never been happy with my weight. no matter how much time I spend at the gym and how much I starve myself stupid, the smallest pants size I will fit into is a 5 or 6. I have my mother's hips and my body is simply not built that way.
No matter how giving and generous I am, none of my friends/family/co-workers will ever appreciate me I have always been too quick to trust and help someone in need. I never asked questions or made a fuss. Whatever you needed, I would be there. If you were stuck in some god-forsaken place like Elizabeth NJ with a flat tire, i'd be on my way to help change the spare. But when I really needed something, no one would even consider helping. Yeah. That's cool I guess. I'll have to keep that in mind for next time...
As much as I love art and music, I cannot make it my career. I will admit, I don't have a sociable personality. I don't think i'm talented enough to earn instant respect from others in the industry, and I don't have the motivation to chase after people to "network". The arts will always have to be second.... surviving with a paycheck will always be a 1st priority.
Life is Short. Then you Die. Two people in my life just found out they are terminally ill. There isn't much I can do for them.... and as bad as I feel, I can't let this ruin my own life... I have to move on.
... more on this later. time for fireworks <3
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Things will be okay. Life will go on. Wishing you the very best.
Don't accept the art/career issue.